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i had a fun weekend :)
back to school tm :(
i NEED new friends i hate all of my FAKE ASS "FRIENDS"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sucks when you cant trust ANYONE!

bahahaha

sooo i drunkenly walked home tonight. it was refreshing. i feel like im never going to mature past the maturity level im at now. is that ok? as long as i keep up with my responsibilities can i spend the rest of my life ripping bongs, focusing on getting money, crushing on every dude i see? can i bee eternally 18 forever? cuz idk if i can grow older than that. im having mad fun. i never want to have a boring life. every day i see people who look and act so BLAND. even tho it may cause some extra negative drama every once in a while, i love going hard at everything i do. i cant imagine living anything lesss


ya feel meee??
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Underneath a disguise of a smile, gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry

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my "boyfriend" (well now EX boyfriendd... fuck him!!) dropped off the face of the earth . oh cool life melissa

whatever im getting over ittttt.....
sooo lately ive been kind of scared about LIFE. i graduated hs in june and i just registered for nassau. i was a really bad student in hs. i'm smart but in hs my main concerns were getting money and smoking weed, oh and running around at the bagel place instead of going to class. YES not good. but im ready to change my ways. im just scared because idk what i wanna do yet.. i mean i REALLY dont know. i feel like i have no talents.
and i feel like im NEVER going to grow up. im waiting to become a mature and graceful person but i dont think itll ever happen.

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I CANT GET OVER MICHAEL JACKSON DYING :-( all i can think about is when my dad forced me & my lil bro to sit down & watch thriller when we were mad lil haha