| this pretty much sums up how i'm feeling at this point in my life. |
[15 Apr 08 + 3:15pm ] |
|
|
|
|
[13 Feb 08 + 12:47pm ] |
|
guess what livejournal? i am 17 years old! that may not be an accomplishment or special to a lot of you and it's kind of a pointless age (like.. 16 is fun for girls and 18 and 21) but i'm SO excited about it cuz to me it's crossin over into the second half of teenage years... meaning i'm ALMOST DONE!!
anyway yesterday i had the best birthday i've had in a long time. michala, taye, nestor and tim came overrr.. and then we had linguini && clams for din cuz its my favorite food. then we had cake and i got an 80gb black ipod =] it wasnt a surprise cuz i picked it out but im mad happy i have an ipod again.
then all of us + my lil brother went downstairs and started playing kings.. if you guys didnt know kings is a drinking game.. and everyone has different rules but ima type out the ones we played with cuz i'm bored.
( kings )
it was so funny.. my lil brother picked a 5 and he said "movies" then right after was like WILL SMITH! then for questions people were going around saying questions and someone asked a question about elephants.. then it got to elephants and michala was like "I... LOVE... ELEPHANTS!" it was soooo funny. and i would ALWAYS be last for 7 haha =[
anyway then taye and tim left and me and michala and nestor chilled upstairs until nestor left then me and michala had a long ass talk cuz of the subject "two boys we know are complete idiots" .. then it went off into liek 78 different other topics and idk it made me feel better.. lately ive been in a shit mood and i always am this time of year and the ~*chat*~ didnt change anything but made me feel better. cuz dat hoes is dat best friends ♥
anyway i didnt go to school today cuz i was up mad late so im goin to play with my ipod now. =]
|
|
| ummm i feel like im insane. |
[10 Feb 08 + 12:07pm ] |
|
oh cool! awesome night last night! i was a bitch to everyone, drunk txted someone who a) is deaded from my life and b) i really didnt even want to talk to in the first place.... [and knowing him he was like "LOL WOW THIS MEANS SHE STILL WANTS ME AND IS MISERABLE W/O ME" so umm yea that pisses me off that i txted that cuz its like me looking dumb and looking like i still care about him.], was around the corniest people from my school all night, then the cops came and everyone left.
me and tim walked around the block a few times to see what was going on and i started.. hysterically CRYING..... because i didnt want nestor to get in trouble? what the FUCK, WHAT THE FUCK, WHY WOULD I CRY ABOUT IT LMFAO WOW, like.. no. we went to get a dutch then back to tayes.. we smoked a blunt and nestor and tim and her knocked out. and i couldnt fall asleep so i started getting upset so i just left and started walking home at 4 in the morning. then a dude stopped me and tried to take me home. it was creepy and weird.. idk.
but yea, really idk why i have to be such an insane crazy bitch. i think im going to just go ghost for a while lmfao. to be honest i think itd be better for society and mankind in general if i just stayed in my house until february ends.
today as soon as i woke up my mom like.. shook her finger in my face and said the past 2 nights my dad came to her in her dreams cuz hes worried about me and woke her up and in the dream he was like you better remember this dream. umm yah so im in a bad mood about that cuz it was unnecessary to tell me that
oh and i decided to give up on certain things and people. its just not worth my time or energy to think about something that would never happen. oh and i turn 17 in two days.. oh and the only reason i want to get a new job asap is because i want UGG BOOTS. WOW I REALLY HAVE GONE OFF THE DEEP END GUYS SOMEONE THROW OUT THE LIFE BOATS...
ya and the song called "just fine" by mary j. blige makes me want to kill someone =/
~*du du du du du du du walkin past the mirror*~ lmfao add ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) granelli, shes my best friend and basically the only person i can stand in life anymore.
|
|
| hewwo again. |
[21 Jan 08 + 1:26pm ] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
okay |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
can't knock the hustle - jay-z ;) |
] |
SO '08 is ight so far, i guess. i have off this week cuz of midterms. i took my english and math ones on friday. english i KNOW i at least got a 95, i can't wait to get my grade back. math, not so much. anyway i have a social studies on in the morning on wednesday and that's all! and on tuesday, thursday and friday morning i have to go to boces. then when i go back to school on monday, the 2nd marking period is over. not too happy about that cuz i know i didn't do too well but i'm amped to do really good the third and fourth ones, cuz i did really well the first one.
i haven't done too much in the time i've had off... umm on saturday shantaye had a party. they were going to get a keg but cuz no one really threw down besides me, nestor, taye, my lil brother and a few other people we just spent the money on the supplies for JELLO SHOTS. i went over taye's early to make the jello shots with her and her dad and it was mad fun. we made mad of them and it was mad funny. her dad was like shantaye you really shouldnt do this when your high... when she wasn't even high and coming up with mad suggestions for how to make them.
anyway then the party started and i was mad happy cuz i was with my favorite people like michala, richie, nestor, taye, etc. i hung out with emily who i haven't seen in a while so that also made me happy. she also brought this girl cat who was reallyyy funny. o0o i knocked over my friend grayson's beer which was mad funny cuz i accidently did it (it was sitting on the floor) then as soon as me and michala heard the crash we ran over to opposite sides of the room and hid/started laughing. o0o yeah grayson came with sean (my ex) cuz they are best friends but i didn't care cuz i am done with him completely, forever. i thought i was goin to get mad or upset but it didn't even cross my mind so now i know i'm completely over him. my lil brother was there it was his first time gettin completely done off haha he was with his friend bono and nestor was tryin to get people to dance with him, it was mad funny.
then yesterday i got my nails done. i got fill-ins, got them cut shorter and got just a regular french with two hearts on each thumb. i don't know what i'm doing today. i may go to the bank cuz i need $ for a new idea ima do. i need a new job and i applied at a few places but until i get a new job, i have another plan.
yo i also have a HUGE crush on someone. yea i've had it for a long time but then i got preoccupied with something else and kinda forgot about it i guess. but it came back just as strong as before. i'm not down for dealing with drama in the "relationships" area right now so i'm just going to have a secret crush on him. oh and there's another kid i have a small crush on who's pretty cute. but i'm not in the mood to do anything about it but flirt cuz i'm not in a relationship mindset right now, i'm kinda interested in doin me and $. OH YES I'M ALSO EXCITED FOR SPRING/SUMMER/WARM WEATHER.. despite the fact that it's 26°.. I'M READY TO GO SHOPPING FOR SHORTS.
|
|
| i may or may not still be listening to spice girls. |
[9 Dec 07 + 10:01am ] |
|
okay so i just woke up and i told my mom about the job situation in the post i did last night. she agrees with me that it's grimy my boss is talking shit about me but she's also annoying me. because my mom is a great person and not afraid to say anything that's on her mind, but she's also the type to take a lot of shit. she told me "how do you know joe [the bus boy] isn't just saying that to make you quit?" i know he's not because a) i've known him before either of us even started working there.. he's not competitive at all.. and b) even if he was, he could give two shits less about the job. he hates it too and wants to leave and we always insult and make fun of the people who work there together.
so then my mom's like "maybe she's just the type of boss to talk shit." uh, no. i won't work and bust my ass every time i work for barely any money for someone who's like that. i know bosses are rarely ever great, or even nice sometimes, but i don't really think there's an excuse to badmouth your employees to everyone else when they aren't there. then my mom goes "well quit if you can find something else, but sometimes you have to take a lot of bullshit in life." and i was just like "...not me." i hate the mindset certain people are in that in order to ~*get to the top*~, or make money, or even make it through life, you have to deal with other people's bullshit. i will never do that, i think it's stupid.
plus i'm only 16 and she thinks that i won't find another job that i can make money, since at the beginning of this job i made a lot. um, try any other restaurant ever. also maybe one that has more than five tables a night on saturdays.
|
|
| ...you are so cute... |
[20 Nov 07 + 3:01pm ] |
|
i've been sad for the past like 3 weeks and i still kinda am but i'm covering it up with liking a boy, making $$$, clothes and other stuff that i love. it's a little bit uncomfortable to know that the thoughts that hurt me are still floating around in my subconscious and could come back at anytime. i feel like it's unfinished business.. like i haven't come to terms with the things i feel, just pushed them away. but i feel so much better. i'm just too busy to be upset. i'd rather preoccupy myself with thinking about what color i should dye my hair and what shoes i should buy next, instead of thinking about what i lost and what i don't have. it's really whatever.
|
|
